I would say I’m sorry but i’m really really not XD I should probably fix them in my tags too because HELLO first OTP after Ron/Hermione. And oooh I’ll see then! Did you get it on your smartphone/tablet or on the computer?
Tsk tsk, so eine Frechheit! But yeah, Usako and Mamo-chan forever ok, ok.
Also I’m playing in on my pc and sucking at it. The amounts of fail in the 2nd of 4 levels just now.. auwch. Maybe I should just give up for today. XD I wanted to download the Gameboy app while I was in the Thalia this afternoon (they have free wi-fi) but I forgot. Whawha.
“Live a good life. If there are Gods and they are just, then they will not care how devout you have been, but will welcome you based on the virtues you have lived by. If there are Gods, but unjust, then you should not want to worship them. If there are no Gods, then you will be gone, but will have lived a noble life that will live on in the memories of your loved ones.”—
I don’t think I handled the situation very well, as I a) missed an exam, b) lied about the reason [though I did throw up later because of nerves and I did actually eat something bad, but it didn’t make me sick], c) she caught me out on the lie, I’m fairly sure and d) I walked away without her noticing I’d said goodbye. That’s not me handling a situation very well, I think, that’s me being so completely through I have no clue what I’m doing. But I suppose I did turn the situation around, retook the exam.. and in that way I guess I did handle it well. Just the walking away out of the test room was badly done, but I cannot really regret it.
Thanks for all the hugs, everyone! I’m already quite over it because I got to retake the exam. It’s a stupid thing to happen, I don’t know how it did, but I’m quite sure it will never happen again. I’m going to blame it on a burnout of sorts, a mental one that has nothing to do with an enormous workload. I’ve just been too out of it, the past couple of months.
But yes, I’m now completely off for the rest of the summer. I have 2 weeks to amuse myself in here in Vienna, and to say goodbye to people and stuff (if they, unlike my roommate, have the courtesy to say goodbye before leaving, that is). I will be meeting up with the people I’ve befriended during my stay here, get rid of the stuff I need to get rid off, pack, and do some touristy stuff. Utrecht will be more of the same: unpacking, traveling, meeting people. I’m only properly home in August, so I can’t really look for a summer job.. so yeah. I’m very much left without anything to do for the next 2 months. The only plans I have are reading Neil Gaiman’s American Gods, watching Horrible Histories & finish watching the Sailor Moon Live Action. Besides that, just doing whatever I fancy, I guess? My summer plans are awesome. -_-;
And now back to Pocahontas, because how else would you deal with a shitty day other than by watching your favourite favourite favourite movie??
I must say that I once again turned the situation around. I went to the uni for my second exam, the professor (the same one for test 1) was like “hey, I recognize your name”, so I basically told her I’d eaten something bad but figured I’d try exam no. 2 because I needed the ECTS. She told me I should’ve let her know (which I did, in mail 1, I digress), but gave me the chance to re-take the exam at 16:00. Which I did.
The exam was in a small room with over 200 people in it, it was insane. And when I was finished, there were like 50 people waiting in line to hand in their other exam. I was standing right next to her, making excuses and shit and she just didn’t hear me. But as I was about to faint, I did what was maybe a stupid thing, I left the test on her desk and walked away. Maybe not the best attitude, buuuut.. me and this professor don’t really get on. I didn’t want to wait any longer, I was tired of her ignoring me (this was not the first time!! regardless of how decent she was in solving this situation, I don’t easily forget, which is not always a good thing, I suppose..) so I walked out. Also there was someone waiting for me, so yeah.
If she didn’t see, she’ll find the paper at some point. I don’t quite care.
The point is, I’ve taken all my exams. I have summer holidays. I don’t feel as happy as I’d expected. I just feel exhausted. But at least it’s over.
well fuck :/ nothing to do about it now I guess… I know this is useless, but don’t let it get to you, it happens to everyone.
Does it? I don’t know.. she just told me I can retake the exam in September. Yeah, that’s gonna work out splendidly, because I can’t be in Vienna in September, I need to be in Utrecht!! So I’ve just asked her if that means I definitely can’t retake the exam and then, well, I guess I’ll have my answer. Still fails, tho.
No don’t hate yourself :( I understand you tho, this happened to me once and I NEVER sleep in, its so frustrating when stuff like that happens on an important exam day, can ruin your entire day.I hope you’ll be alright and that the second will be ok
I was awake, that’s the worst thing, my brain just thought leaving at 10:40 was the right thing to do and I didn’t consciously realize that if the exam starts at 10:15, leaving at 10:40 is not going to cut it.. then mom joked to me on Skype like “lol you’re still online but you can’t be here”.. but I was.
I was never really going to pass the second exam, chances of that happening now are pretty much 0.
I have no idea whether I can re-take the exam. I mailed her about that, said I was ill and had to throw up and that that’s why I wasn’t there.. I actually threw up afterwards so hey, not a complete liar!! I also told her I will try to take the other exam of hers I have to do this afternoon, so she’ll have a (now partly true) reason why I will fuck up that exam. I didn’t study properly but hey, now it’s because I was ~ill.
the worst thing is: Babsi just told me what the exam was and it was really easy. I hate myself now, for the rest of this week, the rest of my stay, maybe for months to come. I may not need the ECTS but I fucked up majorly and I will not get over this so quickly.
Just saw I’ve passed my Minnesang (Medieval Love Poetry) exam with a 2 (which I think is like 80%? all I know is the marks here in Vienna range from 1 - 5, with 1 being the best and 5 being insufficient).
But the thing is, I was so certain about this exam.. I now have no clue what happened with the others. Oh well. Technically I only need to pass 2 out of 6 exams, so half of the work is done..?
Watch me majorly fuck up today’s exams, though.. ^_^;
I’m so mentally tired tonight. Talking to a friend from Utrecht, face to face, about actual life issues at home and a sincere talk about the whole Vienna situation, it does things to me. Because I suddenly realized: I never really wanted to move here. I always talked of it, but those speeches were just castles in clouds, things to dream of, but not to do. I never planned on actually doing it. Yet here I am. In Vienna. Still living here, after 4 1/2 months.
To some extent I’ve been happy here. But I’ve mostly been depressed and fighting it, I think, and that’s why I feel so exhausted now. There’s not much left in Utrecht to come home to, but it will have the people I love best and chances to see the other people I love best, so that will have to make up for it.
Today was just a very melancholy day. One of my roommates who I like very much is moving out tomorrow, despite my unhappiness here I don’t really wish to leave Vienna if the Utrecht situation is so sucky, I’m also mourning my favourite class which really ended today. Plus I had to sort of study for tomorrow’s exams which are gonna suck. Didn’t study much and that didn’t improve my mood at all.
I think I have a talent for getting depressed over little things. I also think I’ve an extreme talent for being homesick..
YK what irritates me the most? I can be in AUT in less than an hour. It’s so close! And yet the delivery rates are different. || Only 45min? Why? The shortest exam I had was 60min. 45 isn’t enough! Oh well, you did mention the important things :)
It truly is insane. And yeah, 45 minutes. In the end it turned into 60 minutes anyway, me thinks, but the set time really was 45 minutes. Which truly is too little time! And yeah.. I think I did.
I would probably have chosen a point of analysis and just gone crazy one that, but possibly neglected eveything else on the way.. and then I’d hope it would suffice that I am capable of expressing myself in a good way XD
That’s what I did: I contrasted Eilhart’s Tristrant with Gottfried’s Tristan, the one we talked about in-depthly in class. It also seemed to be the point of the seminar, so I went with that and named millions of differences, haha, but whether he agrees with what I’ve written.. he should, because I wasn’t wrong, but we’ll see. I don’t know for sure if that was what he was looking for.
It IS insane! And guess what, Austria, who is our neighbour, always have less expensive delivery. Sometimes a lot less. I don’t get it! || And yes, of course I know Parzival! Merlin, I feel so stupid rn. I don’t know what I was thinking yesterday.
It’s especially insane, as you guys are neighbours *and* both in the EU. I’m sure they have a ‘reason’ for this, but it seems so odd and frustrating!
Haha, no worries. I didn’t know the Parzival when starting to study the Middle Ages, so see, you’re doing fine ;D
I know that kind of exams and to be honest - I don’t like it. Yes, you can write whatever you want, but I always forget things, I would probably remember if I had to answer a question. Still..,I’m glad this is over for you and I’m sure you rocked it!
Yes yes yes exactly!! I know *tons* about the Eilhart Tristrant, why we see it as the oldest version that we have, what happens, all the differences between this version and Gottfried’s.. I’m not kidding, I could write down the complete synopsis for you here and now. I just need longer than 45 minutes. But it wasn’t the only question, either. I hope I wrote down most of the stuff he deems important storyline-wise, but shit, I could’ve told him everything he wanted to know. But I forgot stuff. Excuse me while I cry. (Though I did write down what he says in the powerpoint are “the most important aspects of the story”, so I should be more than fine anyway, but still!!!)
Also: SO much information in this entire course. Like, SHITTONS of information. He only asks about this? I feel a bit cheated, though I loved the whole seminar so much. It really was my favourite thing about Vienna.
Das Gottesurteil 8 lines of Gottfried’s Tristan in Mittelhochdeutsch
So, the one dude asks: “what the hell? Sir, these aren’t questions. What do you want to know?” “Everything you can think of within 45 minutes. Go!”
I knew tons, but still forgot some. Meh. But then I did spend the entire time writing and wrote loads and loads, so I’m quite confident I’ve passed the exam. But seriously. Those two questions (+ room for your name, student number, etc. etc.) were the only things on the paper.