So… I’m moving back home in about 37 hours. One day left and I’ll be leaving Bayern without being able to come back for a while. I know I complained a lot, and some things really were too much and too invasive, but on the whole I can happily say I didn’t actually hate it here. It took some time, but me and the people I’m living with figured ourselves out and have now been living together very comfortably. Of course, this is the point where I have to leave. Inconvenient, but that’s life. These things take time and I only had the four months anyway.
The one thing I’ll miss the most is someone I said goodbye to today. It’s the granddaughter of the people I’m living with, who’s currently about 17 months old. I’ve been there to hear her start “talking” (she doesn’t really use words yet, though there’s plenty of words she understands!) and I’ve been here to see her learn to walk (it’s insane, last week she couldn’t stand up by herself, and now she walks around a lot. she can even climb stairs by herself!). But this little girl… okay, I only knew her in those four months too, but really, she liked me. From the start, surprisingly. She told me many stories and we played together. Quite a lot. She hugged me. She wanted to eat with me. She followed me. It took some time to get this close to her, but I succeeded. However we had to say goodbye today and now I’m sad.
What this taught me is that I’m surprisingly quite good with children. Also that I want kids (I already knew this, but I’m really certain now). Ah, kids. They’re definitely tiring sometimes, but it was fun. Due to family circumstances I could never see my nephews or cousins grow up, so this was the first time I was around a little kid for a longer period of time. It was really nice. And now I’ll never see her again… and even if I do, she won’t recognize me. Isn’t that sad..
Also lazydolls: I want to wish you all the best for tomorrow already! I don’t know about pc access tomorrow so I’ll just say it here already. I love you and good luck. We’ll talk again when you have internet access and we’ll see each other again in Seoul to celebrate our birthdays. 사랑해 ♥
“For patients with Lou Gehrig’s Disease, I completed a refreshing challenge after the day performance of Dracula! Please donate to this cause!!! Have strength!!!" - Junsu [x]
“ALS Campaign… Ailee yah, thank you for making me do a good thing" - Jaejoong
I know that some people may have some misforgivings about this whole campaign, but beyond the hilarity of seeing celebrities get soaked (c’mon don’t tell me you didn’t let out a laugh seeing Junsu’s awkward kneeling photo or Jaejoong’s… how should I put it, shrieks of pleasure pain) this ‘trend’ has done wonders for the ALS Association.
“Between July 29 and today, August 12 , The ALS Association and its 38 chapters have received an astonishing $4 million in donations compared to $1.12 million during the same time period last year." [x]
I know myself it wasn’t until this challenge picked up that I bothered to look in more deeply about this disease. If you’re like me and don’t have the funds to donate but can spare a minute to read about the cause, head here. :)
“If someone were to die at the age of 63 after a lifelong battle with MS or Sickle Cell, we’d all say they were a “fighter” or an “inspiration.” But when someone dies after a lifelong battle with severe mental illness and drug addiction, we say it was a tragedy and tell everyone “don’t be like him, please seek help.” That’s bullshit. Robin Williams sought help his entire life. He saw a psychiatrist. He quit drinking. He went to rehab. He did this for decades. That’s HOW he made it to 63. For some people, 63 is a fucking miracle. I know several people who didn’t make it past 23 and I’d do anything to have 40 more years with them.”—